im leaving again. and i know he hates me for it. thats why he cant say goodbye. and thats fine. i really did expect nothing better. he was right for saying expecting better from him would just leave me dissapointed. this isnt where i belong anymore. its become painfully obvious. to be honest im not sure where i belong right now. but i do know that its not here. and i do know that its with my trent. i supposse that will have to do for now.. i almost sold my camera and equip. and then i found out my shutters broken im going to take it as a sign that i shouldnt sell my stuff. ughhhh. 225 dollars for a new shutter. so for now a i have a 500 dollar paper weight sitting on my desk.